oh yeah i almost forgot....

hey guys i know its been a while... work has pretty much put a gun to my lifes head and blown its awesome brains out.... because outside of work i have no life now apparnently.. so yeah my birthday is sunday two days away... im so excited... well other than the getting old part. i'll be the big 21 .... yeah thats supposed to be this huge milestone and you are supposed to celebrate it like its going out of style cause you can drink alcohol legally... but that doesn't really apply to me since im not going to drink. like ever. even at my wedding .... there will be no alcohol. at all. none. not a single drop. if you cant stay sober for all of half a day then i probably don't want or need you there anyway. but back to what i was saying and why i was saying it, im not going to be drinking. because my sperm donor (wasn't around long enough to be called a dad) was an alcoholic and i saw how he treated my mom and how it affected her and now me, i have a really short fuse and a quick temper because thats the atmosphere i grew up in. thats all i know it isn't all my fault. but i dont want to be like him. i dont ever want to make someone feel like they are less than human. so to help myself from resorting back to that im not going to drink. not for any reason. not for special occasions. or celebrations. not even for my own wedding. I REFUSE TO BACK DOWN! this will not ruin my life the way it did my parents' it can't happen. i cant let it. and i wont let it. this is my position. and i won't give up.

Time for an Update

yeah guys sorry its been over a month since my last post.. i've been doing things.. like getting pieces of my life pieced back together.. things fell apart unexpectedly after the summer but they are falling back to the way they are supposed to be.. but to keep my mind off of that.. and keeping me busy not is my new employment at Bojangles (bo*han*gel*ees) today was my first day and i love it.. it was really dead today but it is great.. the people i work with make it a quite enjoyable experience.. also sliding across the wet floor is pretty interesting also.. but it is a nice change from my 60+ hour weeks down at the beach.. i get more rest and get to do some things i want to do.. like go to a football game =]].. but i dont get to do some things i really like and really want to do like talk to my girlfriend.. but it'll be ok.. cause she is the best girlfriend anyone could ever dream of asking for.. she understands its only temporary and we will still talk and get to see each other every now and then.. whenever we can.. we both are gonna hate this but it is a job and it is for the best and it will all work out in the end.. so yeah it's 2:16 in the morning.. i just thought i should let you guys know that.. ok so i guess that's it for now.. thanks you guys for reading and keeping up with what's going on in my life..

ok so sneek peek/spoiler alert.. i plan on starting up a second YouTube channel for what i hope are daily/live life stream vlogs but to do this i need you're help.. if you guys/girls could go to my YouTube channel and leave me some comments telling me what you would like me to talk about in my vlogs it would really help me narrow down what to say.. and until i figure out how to do the editing it will make my videos more point oriented instead of me rambling.. im not asking for you to subscribe and like all of my videos.. if you want to that's great.. if not i understand and that's ok too..

well guys until next time,
much love
t totha j

YouTube Link: http://www.youtube.com/user/ngutj

Beach Burn

My one day off at the waterpark i took and went to the waterpark and while i was in the wave pool trying to learn how to swim i got massivly sunburnt. like really really bad. so im glad today is my last day working till friday. two days off back to back will be good. gotta get ready for work

Home Sweet Home

ok so i'm home from school on summer break. and im saying summer break because this is not my summer vacation. my summer vacation will hopefully start in june on the first when me and melody get jobs at the beach at the waterpark yeah i know many of you will be thinking summer vacation not starting till you start work. lame. but i can't wait to work down there. we are going down on the 15th for an interview and orientation. so i think this is done for now. im sorry i havn't posted in a while. internet here is pretty shotty and i never know how long it will last or even if i'll get it. love you all and thanks for reading.
until next time
tj

Indoor Soccer Match Five (Playoffs Rd. 1)

the game was a disappointing loss 2-0. the game was a mess and a lot of fouls were called that just weren't there. we didn't attack the goal while they did and one man can only move so fast. those reasons are why we lost and that's it. there is no other explanation and there are no excuses that are needed. we are out of the playoffs. we have next year and thats what we can all look forward to.

till next season. when i will be returning to the game.
the pig will rise again.
_-t to tha j-_

Indoor Soccer Match Four

ok so this was the first game i didn't play in. ok so this game ended in a 2-2 tie and went to PK's where we lost. 5-4 it was a back and forth round of PK's to match an equally back and forth game. there were a LOT of uncalled fouls mostly tripping and not playing the ball. and the game should have never went into PK's due to a non-called goal by Josiah it hit the pad and everyone on the court called it even the opposing team but the refs neglected to call another goal costing the Piggly Wiggly's another game due to a round of PK's

another frustrating moment is when i could have went in upon numerous occasions but because of the advise of the doctors on my sprains and concussion i decided it would be the best idea to remain on the bench and just support morally. it was a well played game with a lot of yelling and bickering between teams but not as violent as the last. the fouls that were called were mostly minor nit-picking stuff with not much value. and truly no reason to be called other than to burn up the clock. and tick away pointless seconds that could have been used in-game. i don't believe that this game was a complete loss other than on the record. i think we improved our PK skills because the last game that went to PK's we got decimated during them. this week only a few got through and that was no ones fault.

it was a well played game by all. and i look forward to commenting on the next game. which is monday and the start of the playoffs. we might have a double header. but more details will be given... just keep a look out for updates on my facebook or on here. i'll keep ya'll informed. smooth sailing and goodnight.

Happy Thursday

hey so im just sitting here thinking how in the world do i get 116 profile views when i only have one follower... and that's my girlfriend. she has 5 followers and only has 86 most of which are from me. ok i was just wondering about that and thought it was funny. so today is thursday. im not really sure the significance of today. i know its the day after me and melody's 16 month anniversary and the day before starshine (her prom) so i just realized i am like really super bored right now cause i was just singing gollum's song from when he is about to get shot by the gondorians ... so yeah im bored

tonight is the indoor soccer match 4 im really excited but at the same time i am really sad because i wont be competing tonight due to the injuries i sustained monday night. but a quick update on that my leg isn't swollen as bad. i slept on the couch again last night and had it elevated on a few pillows. i didn't really sleep that great but my leg isn't swollen as bad, that i can tell right now. but i will be at the game tonight and in the bleachers where i got hurt monday to cheer on my team

i cant wait for tomorrow because its starshine. and i cant wait.. cause its going to be so much fun

alright well im done for now... i'll write again after the soccer game and let yall know how it turned out pce

Indoor Soccer Match Three

tonights game was a violent turn of events for me.

the game started out normal other than i got to start this game... before the first half was over i was fighting for the ball and got my legs kicked out from under me and landed flat on my bad knee and then it got landed on by the other guy... i was in so much pain i couldn't even call my own foul. chip had to call it for me and then help me up. well i stayed out for a little while and then went back in and got headbutted in the face and busted my bottom lip... so thats two fouls... and the worst is yet to come. in the second half i was going to get the ball and got surrounded and checked up into the bleachers hit the side of my head, and then went down and hit the back of my head and thats when i blacked out. i woke up with someone from the other team trying to help me up. ive been told i was out from 30 seconds to a minute. so after that i was out of the game and i felt really bad cause we didn't have any more replacements i was the only sub left. we won the game 1-0. well after we got back in the room i started feeling lightheaded and dizzy and nauseous and so phillip decided that it would be best to call EMT to check for a concussion. so the EMT showed up and recommended that i go to the ER and get looked at. so we went to the ER and i got looked at and ended up getting 7 x-rays and 2 CT scans 3 x-rays on my neck and 4 on my knee. then i went back in the room i was in and got greeted by my two best friends in the entire world my girlfriend and my roommate. the results came back and i have a mild concussion, and a sprained knee. the only thing the doctor prohibited me from doing ... i am not allowed to play ANY contact sports for two weeks so that means no soccer playoffs. :'(
so my first season i helped get us to the playoffs and wont be able to participate in them

its a real bummer cause i was looking forward to playing cause i really seem to have a passion for this game. and now i can't do what i was looking forward to doing all over some stupid injury. but i wont miss a game... i am going to be at every game, every practice, every meeting they have cause im still part of the team.. no matter how hurt i am...

so today has been a very bitter sweet day. i got my tux this morning for melody's prom friday, we won the game tonight, i can't play for the rest of the season, i am in really bad pain, i got to see melody which was good, but i was laid up in a hospital bed which wasn't good, i have a concussion and a sprained knee. which all suck.. and so i think im gonna try and fall asleep since it is now 2:34 a.m.

goodnight you guys and galls

hmm Sleeplessness strikes again

ok so its another twelve o'clock midnight post... sitting here bored and tired but unable to go to sleep so i am sitting here staring at the computer screen and wondering why i cant go to sleep. i found out earlier that my papa was taken to the hospital from what we think was a stroke. and now i know im not going to be able to sleep. and if i do it wont be well... and tomorrow i have to be up at 10 for chapel then class at 12 and then maybe going to get my tux if it is ready tomorrow and then tomorrow night i have our third soccer game. and im still drained from this weekend so tuesday i am going to be dead after our game tomorrow night and then tuesday morning i have to get up at 8 for class at 9:25 and then im not going to be able to catch up on any sleep and i dont know whats going to happen with my papa yet so i dont know how that is going to turn out. so i dont know exactly how draining this week is going to be. and honestly i dont know how much more i can take. im just going to hopefully take this week one day at a time and just make it to friday. cause friday will be good cause it's starshine and i'll get to spend time with melody and get to hold her tight as we dance through the night. and as long as i can get to then i will be fine.

the only thing keeping me calm right now is this v8 splash mango and peach drink... cause somehow peach is a very soothing taste for me... its soft and warm. it makes me feel at home wherever i am. i want to have a peach tree. cause i want to be able to lift my kids up to its branches and let them taste the same taste that i find so comforting now. that is a long time in the future but i just want to be able to pass something on to someone. im not sure why but i've always wanted to be able to do that. or teach someone a sport or something like that. i havn't been able to do that either. i just want for my life to count for something. me to have had some use in the world.

im just tired and want to sleep but i know sleep wont happen. so i'll try and go lay down and maybe sleep some...
:'(

Indoor Soccer Match Two

WE WON 3-2

if i didn't play such a good game i would just leave it at that... and leave you with suspense on what exactly happened . lol so yeah i played back center most of the game i only played up once the whole game... i got a lot more playing time this game.. and really enjoyed it.

i had 4 blocks and 5 steals ... so i had a great game and everyone on my team let me know that by all congratulating me at the end of the game... i was able to keep both feet on the floor and stay up right this game which was a big change from last game where i got uprooted.

well it was a great game but not without injuries. phillip rolled his left ankle, chips knee kept popping out of place, and joseph got uprooted and landed on his banged up knee and elbow and started bleeding so he was taken out for medical reasons... but other than than everyone played a safe great game .... it was a lot of fun to be involved in a win =]]

thank you to those who were there physically and those who wanted to be there but couldn't make it out tonight...

this win is for all our fans
Team Piggly Wiggly thanks you
we love you all
pce
tha t man

Spring Photoshoot

alright so im feeling better from last night
and today me and phillip got bored today
so we decided to go outside and take pictures
here is the link:
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/album.php?aid=2059300&id=1162995996
go check them out
like
comment
and just look at some really awesome pictures...
i promise there are more coming
=]]
kthxbie

quick update

yeah i know i havn't really been keeping up with my blog this week. its been a rough week and really stressful. i had a lot of tests and quizzes and such.. and idk i guess it is all hitting me right now after its all over but my chest is really hurting like in a line straight across my chest... idk what it is. but it hurts pretty bad. and so i just thought id write about it since thats about all i can do.
if it gets any worse i will be going to the emergency room . and you will know this cause it will be on my facebook status so yeah... im in pain so im going now =]
i hope you all have a nice day

Happy Easter

not the easter of the world where a over=sized bunny comes in and gives all the kids chocolate, or the easter where you take your kids to the mall and they have their picture taken with the pervert/pedophile in the bunny suit. but the Easter of the risen Savior Jesus Christ. that's the only easter i want to celebrate. the only one that matters. the only one that proves that what i along with millions of others believe is true. that Jesus Christ was hung on a cross, accepted all the sins of the world, died as the ultimate sacrifice so that each and everyone of us could be forgiven, and three days later rose again, and is sitting on the throne in Heaven. and i can't wait to see Him. i sure am enjoying my life here on earth while it is mine to live. but oh what a celebration it will be when He comes to take me home.

anyplace the super sluthes are on the case

ok so i am up at this hour because one i am bored and have nothing to do... but i am also talking to melody's brother scott cause he is in the hospital with jamie cause she is in labor... yeah thats right IN LABOR... like having a baby... like she is having the baby as i am typing this... she just got the epidural a few mins ago... but she still has her sense of humor... i told her that a blog was kinda like an online journal that i can write my thoughts down. so its kinda like an online account of my life. and she cracked a joke and said wow it must be a short blog... haha... but that's actually really funny cause it is cause i just started it yesterday... well this wont get published till after 12 so tuesday... lol.

scott hasn't really responded in a while so my guess is that the baby is either really close to being born or is being born right now. 12:07 am 4-1-2010

ok so it is 12:23 now and still no word back yet. so im going to let everyone know some things that have been going through my head during all this... i know that its not in my immediate future but somewhere down the road i would like to have kids, and i wonder what that feeling is going to be... i know its going to be enormous joy and love but those are given emotions... i want to know exactly what im going to feel. its not anytime soon but i am really curious.. and i want to know. and to be completely honest i am looking forward to it... cause i know that i am just going to be overwhelmed with emotion the first time i hold my child... i dont know what im going to do... but i will probably look up at my wife, kiss her on the forehead and tell her i love her, the tell our baby to say hello to mommy, and hand the baby over to my wife and watch her reaction from holding our baby for the first time.. and then i will lay down and hold my wife holding our newborn baby. and we will all take a little nap. our first nap as a family.

i know that it is no time soon. but i am still looking forward to it. everyone has always told me that i am going to be a great dad. i just want to be able to believe it myself. well i think im going to go to sleep because i have class in the morning.

Indoor Soccer Match One

Ok so the game was amazing. it was really close the entire game.

i went in to the game with 2:20 left in the first half. immediately got the ball and passed, stole the ball passed, took a shot at goal and missed to the left, took another shot at goal missed right, stole the ball again and was regaining control when i got uprooted. it apparently looked worse than it was. everyone on my team was rushing to make sure i was ok. and i just stood back up and was wondering where my legs went and why i was on the floor... oh and i had to call the foul.

the first half closed 2-1 we were ahead and i was on the court... taking the place of Phillip.

the second half began with a score by the other team tying the game at 2-2. later on in the second half phillip took a shot at goal scored and went down with a hamstring injury. his final condition is not yet known. (will keep you updated)

the other team then came back and tied it up 3-3 and then we had possession of the ball when regulation expired.

the game went on into a set of 5 PK's and the opposing team scored two quick PK's and that is how we ended up with the final score of 5-3.

it was an extremely close game and a great game to start off the season. good job all

Piggly Wiggly

alright so tonight starts up the intermural indoor soccer tournament. i am one of the forwards on the defending champion's team. i am one of the few new players brought onto the team this season. i am anticipating it very much and am anxiously awaiting kick off at 10 p.m. tonight. i think that it will be a very enjoyable game and i have a really good feeling that we are going to win. but it will still be a great game to come out and watch and a good time for anyone in attendance.

i hope to see you all there.
God's speed
T to tha J